being a christian is so much more than church.

so much more than the legalism churches in america have made it.

a quote from blue like jazz: "Jazz music was invented by the first generation out of slavery. I thought that was beautiful because, while it is music, it is very hard to put on paper; it is so much much more a language of the soul. It is as if the soul is saying something, something about freedom. I think Christian spirituality is like jazz music. i think loving jesus is something you feel. i think it is something very difficult to get on paper. But it is no less real, no less meaningful, no less beautiful. The first generation out of slavery invented jazz music. It is a music birthed out of freedom.  And that is the closest thing i know to Christian spirituality." i think that is so beautiful. American churches have made jesus into this whirlwind that includes fellowship dinners and sunday school. i hate that. Jesus is emotion. feeling. and in that book he talks about Christians being mystics. he said that all were because what we believed in defied sciences. So many Churches try to reduce christianity down to a formula, which defiles the Holy. it's making Jesus fit into your head, when really all you need to do is start praising him for not being able to. ill continue this later.

Christians should act like Christ.

that's the basic idea right? sure. but the number one cause of atheism is Christians that are hipocritical and deny Jesus by the way they act. We sin too. but the point of believing in Jesus is following him. copying him. learning from him. This isn't how church in America is really viewed i think. church is a tax write off where you go on sunday's. people walk away from church and forget what was even said. i used to be that Christian. i would hear the words, but didn't listen. i was the foolish man that built his house on the sand. i heard, but did nothing about it.

i started a daily quiet time with God on July 4, 2005. i did mine this morning, just like every morning. i made a covenant with God a year ago saying that i would spend time with him everyday. make a sacrifice for him. i think it's working. i actually have a relationship with God. i've grown... so much. and i've kept my commitment because i have around thirty people who get up early or stay up late to do it too... then ask if i did mine... and how it went, and what i'm praying about, or who, or how... amazing accountability.

if you've stopped by and read this and think i'm crazy... it's okay. but if you're interested... really interested. comment me.

thanks.

if i stay in the same place forever

i would miss everything.

i would miss your touch

the feeling and emotion that loving you has brought.

show me how.

show me how to live and breath and move.

show me how to waste time

show me how to love being here.

what's on my mind:

i find it tragic that christianity is viewed on the people of this world who go to church. it is judged and quickly discovered that the hipocritical, pious, traditional image is how it actually is. These lies not only ruin the witness of those who actually have a relationship with God, but it makes many people's hope obsolite.

I recently increased my mission field, left my comfort zone, and learned to love- truelly love- lost people. i've come to realize i may be the only Jesus this person sees. i really could be the difference for this person from spending eternity with their savior, their king, or going to a place of complete, eternal, sadness. i am burdened so much by this. by lack of boldness and my growing pride brought not only me further from Jesus christ, but others who could've seen the truth which i have been taught haven't learned.

just some things that i've been thinking out... maybe you could too.

Ephesians 5:14    Wake up from your sleep, climb out of your coffins; Christ will show you the light.